For those who know me as me in real life, you should still know whatever i am doing maybe because i am telling you or whatever and for those who know me through this blog, i'm sorry but your time is up. this shall then be my last post. why, because i have no initiative to blog my life out, it is pretty depressing. Everything has just turned its dark side onto me. Parents are becoming more cranky to me just because i dont want to do more work in my job(just because i feel tired, isnt it kinda simple to understand??and i believe they have brains??) studies, tennis and basically everything essential to life has revealed it's bad side. When i needed you, you werent there for me, both physically and mentally but i guess this is just the start of being separated. Well, i hope you have received my message to you and i hope you understand how i feel, not that i want you to come back to me and stay by me for life( which is literally impossible at the present moment) but i just wanna voice my feelings that i have kept inside for 2 weeks. i should have mentioned that i dreamt about you a couple of times, even today and yesterday, and yes, all of them were in a calm environment or enjoyable environment. maybe the only way i can get to you is by my dreams:P lol i always have the feeling that all my dreams come into my life like dejavu and they always seems to frequently happened. the friday's dream about you was when i was just ice skating around and you were at the side bench probably with one of your friend and both of you were talking about stuff, i dont know but yeah and i was just skating around and we didnt seem to know each other. i did of course recognised you but you didnt towards me. this dream just followed up with me getting off the ice and we were just walking together out of that place wherever it may be(seems to me like some kind of mountainous area)
the second dream was when we knew each other(i think) and you were talking to me, we were having a nice conversation and your younger brother was there, i wouldnt know how he looked like by in the dream, he had short black a little spikey hair and wore glasses. guess what we were doing, playing DotA. i was kinda shocked when i woke up due to the fact that my dream was about playing dota but anyways lol it was pretty funny. we had a couple of games and you kept asking as to how do you go about with this game.LOL. well the dream ended with some weird ending that i cannot remember. All throughout this blog, the only way i can truly express myself is not by words but by music and today i have selected a couple of songs to fit into the emotions and moods that i have been throught for the last couple of days or so.

warmness on my soul(avenged sevenfold)
vulnerable(secondhand serenade)
with you(chris brown)
shadow of the day(linkin park)
your guardian angel(the red jumpsuit apparatus)

for the moment, this should be the songs that i'm feeling to. kinda weird way to express myself but yeah thats how i do it. one thing i am looking forward to is hip hop dancing class:P i'm gonna learn how to dance hip hop and that includes breakdancing, locking and whatever else.
i gotta say that you seem pretty happy in your current like due to the fact that your blog has a high level of excitement in it and yeah i feel happy for you:D dont worry i will have to move on sooner or later but yeah i have to admit you are one person that i had fun with:P even thought we hardly meet, or wait never met but you seem to be so close to me, it felt pretty warm and nice being able to hear your voice, see you and talk to you but every good thing has a end and ours is now. well wish you all the best in this last post of mine.

okay now i have to go on to darren. i have no idea what i want to type about you except that you make me feel good:P and that you understand me the best, maybe even better than my parents?? i dont really know about that but yeah haha:P you are my best and closest friend:P(althought calling you my best friend in the perspective of a boy sounds pretty gay but yeah i am just trying to say that you are one guy that knows me well. though you are so quiet and dumb(in the sense that you dont talk!! dont get me wrong) i just feel "safe" being with you we had our fun and joys and thrills of running from teachers, going to detention, going for tennis, doubles, and everything else and i thank you god for you as a god-sent friend, you probably feel emotional now cause i am lol but yeah we will stay as very good friends and when i come back, i would have more time now but yeah when i come back, we can go out and play tennis and whatever else two good buddies would do together. wow, i'm starting to realise i could type up so many things about you but i wont cause my fingers and feeling so painful now:D dont worry you know that i'm your uber close friend lol:P

and yes i wouldnt forget that promise i made to you last year but i am not sure if we would be able to put time apart to allow that promise to be accomplished and yes i am talking to you sarah goh.

alright for now and till death of this blog byee and have a good life everyone. people who dont really know me and is reading this and saying what the fuck is this guy talking about, i am sorry i wasted 5-10 mins of your life?? lol but yeah anyways see you guys and play DotA with me whenever you can:P:P it would be most welcoming:P