Life is not fair.
thats the theme for today's post.

Right now there's 2 options,
someone real but unreachable,
and someone reachable but never true.

Both also means i have to make risky decisions
and i wouldnt know what my future will look like after
choosing one path.
Reality over Chance?

Wow i thought getting over a person would be super easy..
i guess it isn't... first time actually to feel this....depressed?

On a happier tone, I wouldnt occupy my mind with
the unnecessary

Strong feeling but not a real one?
Infacutation instead of something real?
Maybe you were right after all Sarah...
ARGH so hard to get her and everything out of my mind.
Seemingly impossible....

she once said to me "feelings changes, and so have mine"
but i guess it took a reversal again.


hah.... im feeling so lonely now.
and kinda desperate too...lols
Anyone wanna keep me company?
lol thanks erika for listening to all my bullshit
on the phone last night.

To sarah, I'll think about it carefully
about what you said and all.
hmmm


Never did I expect such an ending
But for all thats worth,
I thought what we had was real
But now that i see the bigger picture
it felt like something i could not hold onto
like how a kid tries to catch air with his bare hands
i still think about you
but it is about time i stopped and pick myself up
for this would be all but meaningless

"Sometimes goodbye's the only way"-Shadow of the day-Linkin Park